“There is no question that my simple cry (before CS) was ‘If there’s anyone out there, help!’”
/I received your email abut the new postings and fruitage just after I arrived in a new city halfway around the world, had difficulty finding the place I was to stay, finally got in and opened the email from you and then truly (again) found home-the grounding that IS Home, no matter where we are—as we are always home with God.
I have been in what could be considered a “creative profession.” And indeed a good deal of the work requires letting go of the human mind and finding deeper places in oneself. The training required letting go of one’s own habits of personality to find an extended range of the possibilities of expression. At its best, there is also a genuine collaboration with others—coming together to create (the emergence, the discovery of) something new and larger which then reaches and touches others. It often requires not knowing answers but discovering them.
It was good training for me in preparation for finding Christian Science. The unanswered question that “creative profession” did not answer was, “Letting go into…what? What is the source of all that creativity?” That has for me only been answered by the understanding of the one Creator and one creation, and getting close to that source, understanding my real nature as spiritual.
There is no question that the journey to and in and with Christian Science has been a clear sense of something God has shown me -- to let go of the human, and discovering, understanding, living the at-one-ment with God.
I often think of this sentence “As mortals gain more correct views of God and man, multitudinous objects of creation, which before were invisible, will become visible.” (SH 264:13-15) There is no question that my simple cry (before CS) was “If there’s anyone out there, help!". This began my spiritual journey/education, finally landing me in to Christian Science. I could not have even conceived of the work that I have been doing for the past twenty-five years: “Desire is prayer; and no loss can occur from trusting God with our desires, that they may be moulded and exalted before they take form in words and in deeds. (SH 1:11) The desire to serve God as He purposed, not as my human desires – or limited sense of good would direct – has led me into a remarkable use of talents and skills I didn’t even know I had and use of ones that I had studied—to be of service to others. And now those are finding new avenues and voice to serve the Cause of Christina Science. This was none of my doing but Love itself “moulding, exalting”, and putting me in places to serve. I have not gotten less, this living in and of God, but more, and with greater satisfaction and joy.
The chapter on Creation feels as if it lifts the veil to let us see and know the reality and power of the spiritual creation and the Creator, lets us know how to discern, identify and put the weight of our understanding and trust in that reality. It also gives us a few sign posts to beware—stumbling blocks that would lead us astray—but gives a clear sense of how to get back on track.
I am so very grateful and joyous – “My heart is singing: I have found the way”. (Hymn #64).