"Heartfelt genuine abandonment to God"

I don’t know when I first thought this but maybe a year or two ago I was watching a news item involving a local Mosque and rolling my eyes at the rows of men bowing, kneeling and chanting. Then suddenly it occurred to me that actually what is behind kneeling and bowing low is very good and something I needed to do. In its purest sense it’s a manifestation of really bowing to, yielding to, honouring God, and throwing off all supposed personal abilities or will, I think. 

So I decided that bowing - literally - was something I would do myself on my own. 

Many times in the last couple of years when I have felt the need to really reach out to God, particularly when I felt I had no idea what to do and how to deal with something, I have physically and mentally got down on my knees and asked God to show me the way out and to shine the light. (Admittedly there have been a few times when I’ve been distracted by fluff on the carpet (!) and that’s when I know it’s time to get up again!)  On the whole, however, this genuine bowing has been helping me to get the right attitude of genuine humility and genuine openness to what God wants. 

For years I have thought that I had to understand truths personally in order to be healed and that I had to organise things and plan things. Now I’m learning more and more that it’s really about heartfelt, genuine abandonment to God and being willing to do only what God wants and for God, not for self, that moves the mountains.

Much of my bowing has been about my businesses and how they could be brought into line with God. I have two companies. One (which is about me, basically) has been doing well for a while, particularly since Class, interestingly. My other business has struggled. Oddly, the combination of one being, perhaps, over-successful (i.e. I’ve been very much in demand by various media and business outlets) and the other struggling so much that I felt I had to work extra hard to keep it and my staff going, has made things particularly hard over the last few years. The two businesses have made things tough for me physically and have squashed out SO much time for prayer and study.

I’ve been having help from a practitioner and I do think that this, combined with the increasing sincerity of my bowing (literal and figurative) resulted in what seemed to be a chance meeting at the end of last year with someone who has become my business mentor. Under her instruction I have been able to make my struggling business profitable and going in the right direction while greatly reducing the time, effort and money put into it. I am also managing to free up much more time for prayer and study. It’s still work in progress but I am able to get on top of things much better than I did before. 

This business mentor also understands my need for time to pray and get better at healing. In fact she has said that she wants me to spend more time on that because she herself needs healing of a supposedly incurable, physical condition. 

As I say, it’s still work in progress but I do feel that this increasing attitude of working for God, rather than myself, and dropping as much of self as I’m able to do, is helping to get me more “on track”.