Some years ago, when the disease du jour was Swine Flu or as it was clinically called, H1N1, was sweeping through the world’s collective consciousness, I found myself initially unprepared to defend myself mentally against the aggressive mental suggestion. I had an employee whose child was suddenly hospitalized for pancreatic issues and out of kindness I brought warm clothes and a sleeping bag to her at the hospital. As I walked through the hospital I saw signs with warnings about H1N1. The following day I found myself with flu symptoms, which, to be honest, I didn’t think much about it. I just wanted to “sleep it off” – not at all what our Leader recommends.
A few days in, when symptoms of typical flu were not fading on their own, it finally struck me that I actually should be working about the problem as a Christian Scientist. I began slowly by going through the motions of what I thought a Christian Scientist should be doing – read the Lesson, repeat the Lords’s Prayer, listened to hymns, and called a practitioner.
Things seemed to go from unpleasant to worse. After several days I still wasn’t able to hold any food down, and so I wasn’t even trying to eat, and I was only drinking a little bit of water. I lost over 40lbs that week. And now family members were trying to hide the concern on their face when they saw me. I asked the practitioner to come visit me at my home, which he kindly did the next day. He spoke to me in terms that I’m not sure I understood well then, but I do now. He was trying to remind me that it wasn’t about thinking just the right thoughts to accomplish a healing, but that Truth was already true – namely, that my wholeness, my health, my well-being were established and maintained by God, not matter.
The help from the practitioner snapped me out of the mesmerism of the disease to the point that I no longer felt an overwhelming desire to sleep. I could sit up, I could read with purpose, and I could pray. And so I did. I had been raised in Christian Science, I was grateful for past demonstrations, but I wanted to know more. I wanted to understand how the words in the textbook could cause a change in our life’s experience. I remember reading the entire chapter on Christian Science Practice in one sitting and drinking it in in ways that I never had before. What I know is that the reading, studying, and praying that I was doing was moving thought.
With the mesmerism broken from the desire to sleep, and with the uplift I was getting from the studying I was doing, I then heard the sound of preparations for dinner downstairs. I was hungry, and for the first time in a week I wanted to eat. I joined my family for the meal much to their astonishment and joy. Both my mother and the practitioner pointed out to me the comment Mrs. Eddy made to Joseph Mann, “You have been thrown out of the house, see that you don’t go back in,” meaning that there had been an almost violent shift from a sense of life in matter to a new higher view of life in Spirit, and this new view brings a sense of life that is as large as all outdoors.
In a day or two I returned to work, and several co-workers were very interested in how it was that I had been so quickly and dramatically restored to health given what they thought of the situation. It gave me the opportunity to share with them what I felt like I had newly learned in Christian Science. It was one of those healings we might think of as a milestone in our progress as a Christian Scientist, and I am continually grateful for the new views of Life that the experience brought me.